Numbers.. With Love..

Your Inner or Soul's Urge:
This is spiritual and emotional expression more than physical. It is your heart-felt desires, your incentive, how you look at life. Here are your areas of personal satisfaction.

Number: 5

You yearn for personal freedom in every direction, including expression of free will; for change, variety, and constant new opportunity; and to learn about life in all its phases.

The new, the unusual, the progressive -- these are where your enthusiasms are. Waiting around, being stuck in routine, and petty details are personal agitations.

Because of your desire to experience everything in life to its fullest before you let it go, you may tend to overdo sensual experience such as sex, alcohol, drugs, and food.

Instead of formal education, much of your wisdom comes from your tremendous range of activities and your contact with people of many classes and races and walks of life. This can put you in great demand as an alive and witty lecturer or teacher. You tend to be flexible, progressive, and restless.

You can enhance your life experience even more by increasing your sense of loyalty and your patience, better defining your purposes in life, and not scattering your attention so much by going too many directions at once.


Your Personality:
This is physical expression more than spiritual or emotional; your outer self, the way you express when meeting others. It may or may not be the real you.

Number: 11

Neat and clean; that's your usual appearance. With a pleasing personality and gentle manner. You appear cooperative, diplomatic, and tactful. And you appear to adapt easily to varied circumstances and people from diverse backgrounds.

When you don't get your way, you can become cunning and scheming, which may give a contrived or hypocritical appearance.

You attract people who want to be of assistance. You can be subtle and work behind the scenes to accomplish desired lives, being successful more through diplomacy than by coercion.

Try to wear soft, flowing, and neat clothing rather than loud and showy or plain and colorless.


Your Quiescent Self:
Stripping away all outside influences, aspirations, ambitions, "should s", and "shouldn't s" -- this is you when you are alone; just you and your dreams..

Number: 11

You are a Spiritual Leader, able to guide many along the road of your Truth. Your words are inspired. Your eyes glow with the unshakable divinity of your spirituality. You sense there can be glory in martyrdom, provided it inspires others to The Way.

Your thoughts and pleasure are you as an effective leader to the glory of goodness and all people you meet are or become part of your spiritual family.


Your Destiny or Ultimate Goal:
This is your desired lifetime accomplishment. It is a key to a useful and happy life, and to feeling fulfillment during your latter days.

Number: 7

Your destiny is to be one of the educators of the world -- uncovering and understanding the mysteries of life; studying, proving, making sure of facts then writing, teaching, or demonstrating your knowledge to others.

Your quest for knowledge can bring you many unusual experiences and associations. You are intelligent, intuitive, scientific, a thinker, and a sage and you have far-reaching insight. You are an articulate and convincing spokesperson and a perfectionist, and would be at home in any executive position that did not involve machinery or the manufacturing departments.

You enjoy writing, inventing, philosophy, and religions.


Your Life's Path:
Here are clues to what fate has in store for you. It indicates the type of encounters, events, and opportunities you are likely to experience along your physical life path.

Number: 4

Your life is filled with things practical, or making them so with patience, care, and accuracy. You have a strong sense of what is right and are naturally honest, conscientious, and sincere.

You are a worker and can be decidedly dedicated to your goals. In your work, you can be loyal, intense, and dedicated to the job at hand. You tend to be practical, and like to have your facts straight before beginning a project. You can handle money well and tend to keep resources in reserve. You tend to be conservative and protective, with a strong sense of dignity and worthiness.

Your path holds possibilities for great attainment. The rewards come because of patience, service, persistence, hard work, and dependability.


This Year's Path: Here is what you are likely to encounter this year -- your feelings, your predominant perspective, and the type of situations, circumstances, and opportunities you tend to attract during the calendar year.

Number: 3

This is the year to express your inspiration, your imagination, your creative thought, and your deep emotional feelings. You desire to do more entertaining this year and accept more invitations. Take time off to enjoy yourself.

You can give color and warmth to all levels of living. Be artistic. Express yourself joyfully. Now is the time to follow those inspirational and imaginative ideas you are so excited about. Follow your desire for self-improvement; the year is rich with opportunities for inner growth.

It is a colorful and eventful year, with pleasure, opportunities for travel, enjoyable social activities, and entertainment coming your way.

Allow your abundance of cheer and optimism to guide you.


Next Year's Path.

Number: 22

This is a practical year; no long leisurely periods for dreaming, personal indulgence, or careless living. It is a time to build the firm and secure foundation upon which your future depends, using practical values and steady application. It is also the time to work out the details of that project you've been thinking about.

The year opens the door to a greater understanding of your soul purpose. It presents opportunities to serve on a larger scale.

This is the year to find where you stand in life, and to be practical about it -- to pay attention to details; no time for careless living. This is your chance, with hard work and specific orientation, to do something big for yourself and for the good of the world. It is the year to put your dreams to practical use.

This year demands a lot of work, not only to improve the present but also to build practical foundations for the future. Your diligence brings commensurate rewards. With good sense, you can meet all requirements and experience satisfactory gain.

Your gatherings, meetings, parties, and trips are mostly related to work or business. Read the fine print of all transactions.

As part of the practical focus of this year, attend to health matters.


Last Year's Path.

Number: 2

Harmonious associations are very important for you this year. The year's success and good results will be obtained through diplomacy, cooperation, tactfulness, and good relationships. It is a year for receiving and sharing rather than aggressively pursuing your own way.

Your intuition and emotions are enhanced this year.

It is a busy year, with endless demands on your time. It is easier to work with others rather than doing things by yourself.

Your plans and developments may experience periods of delay. No need to worry about that. Things move slower this year.

The year can revitalize your peace of mind. It is a good time to strengthen your friendships.

betcha by golly wow!

There's a spark of magic in your eyes
Candyland appears each time U smile
Never thought that fairy tales came true
But they come true when I'm near U
U're a genie in disguise
Full of wonder and surprise and...

CHORUS:
Betcha by golly wow! (wow!) (wow!)
U're the one that I've been waiting 4 4ever
And ever will my love 4 U keep growing strong
Keep growing strong

If I could, I'd catch a falling star
2 shine on U so I know where U are
Paint a rainbow in your favorite shade
2 show I love U, thinking of U
Write your name across the sky
Anything U ask, I'll try cuz...


(CHORUS)
Betcha by golly!
U're the one, yes U are! (Don't U let 'em tell U otherwise)
And ever will my love 4 U keep growing strong!

Baby, sometime
A man can't find words 2 express all the things he feels inside
But every just so often
The words of another who's truly in love seem 2 work out fine


2 say I love U (I love U)
2 say I'm thinking of U!


(CHORUS)
U're the one I'm thinking of, thinkin' of
Ever will my...
And ever will my love 4 U keep growing strong
Keep growing strong


I love U, baby

warring heart

Dearest fifi,

By now u must be so tired of getting my emails.

I just wanna tell u this.U have been in my thoughts the whole day.I was afraid of getting u even mad.

I want to meet your mum.dad.I want to try to work our relationship.I want to marry u some day.But i also want to marry u, be one with u in religion, be a good son in law, as i know that would be most important to u.

I want to have many baby fifi's with u.Im sure not as pretty as ya.but baby fifi's that i will adore n cherrish as i cherish and adore u.

i want to work hard.provide everything u need for spending rest of ur life.with ease.it will be tough a little.but i know i can do it.

what eva it takes to prove to u that i am true, that u mean the world to me.

i will be more patient.i will try to.there will be times i will loose it.but that u must accept it.as im only normal.

i cherish u with such adulation.

i walk n stand proud.each time i was with u.during my birthday week.i was proudest, when i was with u.

i will n never be ashamed or intimidated, by being with u.i will hold ur hand.when ever.what come may.

i dunno what u want.or what u think.

i know we have our differences.warring hearts like the song goes.but were normal.were just adjusting to different circumstances.diff situations.its expected.

u think about it babe.let me know if u wanna try giving us a shot.try.try.try.giving ur hundred percent.

u let me know.u tell me babe.

i will treat ur heart.as if its mine.
as for my heart.i lost it.to u.to ur troubles.mostly.to ur warmth.ur generosity.ur care.

that i know i dont mention much.

u make it worth while.sharing.giving.

ur the nicest person.in true nature.that i have met.dont convince me otherwise.

always there.for everyone.

i look up to u.i look up to u.on how to be better.

i never take the time to mention the good things bout u.

i will start now.

ur thought.ur mention.brings such joy.as i know it does to many.

u let me know babe.as i have done far to wrong.far to many.to do anything.

i love u fifi.

u must give me a chance.as i am stong for u.

i wanna walk with u.hand in hand.even if my knees wobble under me.

u being around.makes me wanna live long.

try me babe.as i will do.what eva it takes.

today.was tough.as i never knew how u were doing.

i hate being apart.from ya.i hate not hearing from ya.

i love u.a million times i wanna say to u.

Hi princess,
Hope your in the best of spirits.Hope in the best frame of mind too.Im in office.Trying to sort out final details of our work with the koreans.Theres still lots to do when they go back there with us.But hopefully, it will be sorted out.As for yesterday, I am not gonna apologise.yes i am being a little cocky.mostly, a little selfish.But i know by end of this email, I would.yeah i said i felt unimportant.but not insecure.I guess i am like this.If ur a friend, family, colleague, and I do enjoy ur company loads, im gonna care.
Those that are in trouble, I tend to feel more.I cant help but doing it.neither am i gonna change.I dont think its anything wrong in caring for someone.no, i do not lot loose sleep, or go crazy when if ppl dont tell me how they are doing or how their day was or what exactly they are doing.But i like a little communcation.same for my sis.she doesnt call for weeks.she doesnt communicate.I wonder if she is ok.i wonder if she is doing fine.i get upset when she doesnt communicate too.works same with my frens.this is bad or good.i aint sure.
ppl say i should learn to ignore, be less caring or wondering towards family and friends.how do ppl become, frens, good ones, lovers, or life partners..it comes from some sort of attraction.loads of care too.it all needs a beginning point.that leads where i dont know.but this is who i am.this is whom i like to be.yes i can get a little touchy with communication and sorts.but im also always there for all u guys..listening...getting through your tough n lonely times.or just needing some one to listen to.
I dont need all this in return, but i do like some sorts of ability to know how u guys doing.yes u might say shouldnt aspect much in return too.but its a small sacrifice to pay.i think.with u, yes it was like this during the one week u vanished.last two 3 days it seemed the same.yes, u said u have family n frens to care for u.who am i u might ask?i am the one who happened to be in ur difficult situation.not solving anything, maybe even making it more tricky.but by being there, i am began to feel to care.i dont worry if u cant take care of ur self.i know ur a big girl and u can.u always will.but i still want to.
yes were not dating, we dont have commitments to communicate, nor to report to one another.but sometimes would be nice to know how well ur coping.most times it would be nice.
like the boxer terminology i often use.ur the boxer.beaten, bruised, battered, punched to the ground.u pick ur self up again.u try to stand on ur two feet again.to take what life has to throw ur way.u never give up.hope u never do.i aint ur head coach.i aint u manager.im just the guy who is always there holding ur chair at the end of each round.to make sure u wake up well for whats in store next.u might not need to talk to me, i might be insignificant, but i am always there none theless.u might just acknowledge my presence with a glance, thanking me im there.and seeing u wake up again, gives me upmost pleasure.satisfaction.knowing ur trying.
as for ur situation and relationship.yes u said the other day ur trying to be frens with ex and im not gonna come in between.i know that.i could understand that.cause he has meant to u as much, and i probably never feel the same warm glow from u.who knows.but what do u guys have now? sometimes i do wonder.would u guys need to be with one another.i wonder not much.but sometimes i wonder too.if i dont hear from u long, and ur with him, and find it difficult to communicate with me.maybe ur scared i might get the wrong idea.maybe ur scared i might be scared.im not insecure.i have no issues or worry bout if ur gonna see else one.its ur choice.and if u did one day like me loads, then u wouldnt need to seek the comfort of else one.as for me feeling about u.i like u loads.i do enjoy ur company and can imagine us having loads of laughs and having a good time.but i sometimes also want to think.want to take my time.i dont want to get into something, then half way, decide maybe its not best for me.or maybe i cant go all the way with u.if i decide to go all the way, or at least try to make it work, i give it my best.but sometimes ur coldeness, does turn me off.u do switch of at times and seem so cold.i think this weekend was an example.maybe not a good one.from saying yeah we should do something with the guys before they leave.to saying only just.i dont think i can make it.its so understandable.ppl get busy.ppl get things to do all the time.but there seem no hint of dissatistaction from not being able to meet up.it seemed so easy.it seemed so fine.but u are tired as well i know.from all the running around to do, from the juggling of me, from the juggling of ur ex.it can get tiring.but the reason i guess i couldnt understand u being a little hesitant this weekend was, it just seemed so easy for u.when i couldnt make it to bsc la bodega.it ate me alive.i was wondering how u would feel.or how u would feel thinking what ur frens might think.cause u are one that does get affected on what ppl think.i was just wondering if u did like me enough to actually care, why wasnt there an effort to meet up or to do the same for me.but then again, u maybe made it clear a few times that ur not gonna be able to do that.u want to share me with ur frens too.i know..i always make the effort back of being there.cause i know its important to u.u suddenly mean loads to me and i like sharing u with ppl who care.sharing it means they enjoying ur glow n warmth as much as i do.maybe im just a little proud of who u are at times like those.so its kewl when we hang out, but if u decide that its ok to be a little laid back, reserved, then its ok by u...its not ok by me a bit...maybe i guess i feel for u.maybe thats it.but maybe u should be a little more aware.but what the hell..i dont know much.im exhausted from work.maybe sometimes i like the attention too.like the attention u get from me or others.its clear u choose to be reserved when u have to or when want to.or u choose to have me not in ur days when u dont want to.its ur choice.u say its hard to open up.well u have opened up much my dear.by telling me loads.i know.i missed u lots last two three days.n didnt like not being with u.that ate me alive.but didnt enjoy the way u seemed like it was not much.after spending so much time with me.i am sorry.i cant change.i cant be else one.i cant pretend not to care for u when i do.i cant pretend to give half way.im talking bout my wanting to care.u choose to let me care, intentionally or non intentionally, by telling me loads.by opening up.i dont like being the guy with the chair most times.i wish sometimes i was at ur victory parade.but hey, in many words i guess im telling u i dont know whats on on in ur head.or in ur life.but i am here.my life goes on.difficult or not.without the comfort of resting my head in ur shoulder or not.but its not by choice.i really hope ur day was well.or u were doing ok.and i am sorry.for being my self.if it made u uncomfy.i dont want to be like a flickering light.in n out of u or ur days.but patience is something i have tried to master over the years.but patience without its rewards.is crushing

long hard look

Hi girl,Firstly, i like to iterate what i said earlier.yes things going wrong since yesterday is largely my fault.my doing.I am sorry.Its eating me alive.But i know u would understand, or maybe, find it to let us move on.I read ur mail long and hard.we have similarities.we have differences.I grew up in a loving home turned bad.real bad.it has made me what i am today.with the good, n not so good.maybe the things u dont fancy.over the years i have tried to be patient with life.I have learnt, almost always the hard way.to be patient.But u come along, i seem to have undone it all.i may have disappointed ya.above all.i have disappointed my self.as it stands, i am very uncomfortable to see ya.cause i am ashamed.of who i have become in the last two days.yes, im totally being impatient with ya.waiting for your care.for ur self open up.as much as i know i cant force it.i have done it.i screwed up big time.when i first started talking to u n going out with ya.i was awakened.I have met many a ppl.i have gone out many a ppl.but u made me comfy the most.yes since Daphne, u took my breath away.simply by allowing me to be my self.untill now.i saw in u the potential of us growing.much more than i dared dream with Daphne.u make me feel happy.just by doing nothing.thoughts of u make me smile.make me proud.make me wanna share u with all i know.make u known.with her.i had to learn to do all those.i really like what u and steven had.its a big part that i like u.to see u talk or explain on how much u can learn to love him, grow n grow, gives me the optimism that one day, i will have the same.but ur ability to love some one unconditionally, makes me wanna be with u.cause without ur 3 years with him, u would have nothing to state ur case when it comes to love.or loving someone.i do respect what u guys have, and never once i wanna diss it.even when u tell me he beats u up, i find that insignificant at times to what u guys share.i find strength in u.i find care in u.albeit sproradiocally.but its growing.but there is always the thought.what u shared with him.u will never replace it with me.what we might have is something different.there will come a time.that u will love me as much.for many a different reasons.i do not want what u guys had.i just want to be part of ur loving cycle.but being with someone for 3 years.loving em so much.is good.But its not an excuse to go back running to when ur heart feels like it.to move on.to grow.what u had with him.if life is tough.its challenging.especially when it comes to the matters of the heart.u learn from that 3 years.u handle it slightly better.u do it on ur own.it shouldnt be an alibi to go back.at least not so often as time goes by.but its hard.u loved him.u stood by when he was waking up at night dreaming about his ex.i applaud that.i admire that.part of me also says that u were young.that u were naive.what if things didnt go ur way and he didnt realise that u stayed there beside him through it?but luck n fate, turned ur way.u never have to figure out what might have been.i have learnt, staying beside someone, like u did, at this age, never always bears fruit.maybe i never had the experience so much, but maybe i have seen and heard.will there be a guarantee that when i stand by u, our outcome will be the same? that u realise and open up to me?i would like to think so.u would like to.but reality is.it might not.i wonder at ur age and what u know now.would u have stood by or stand by some one new, to open up?when ur young u have not much to loose.when ur older.wiser.u see much more.but saying that.i want to stand by u.i want to do what it takes.to have the chance to have something special with u.if it all falls flat on my face, i am prepared to face it.maybe reality doesnt hit in yet, but i am willing to give it a shot.its much u can bring to me.but a big part knows theres much i can bring to u too.somethings u might not have felt before.some u are used to.as for my impatience, im trying to figure out why the bubble burst.i have been patient with love, money n certainly health.now im weak in patience.in the last 2 days clearly state it.maybe the fact that u little attention, fills my world.my mum barely speaks to me, my sis doesnt hardly, my dad only when he wants money mostly.so the attention n love i get from ppl who are meant to shower me with, is practically non existent.i grew up loving mum n dad n sis more than God.they came first.we have had our differences.last year my birthday,mum n sis never called.that shook my world.that rocked my world.as birthdays in family are a binding force of our love.being with u last few weeks.was good.the fact that u see him sometimes scares me a little.but most times no.maybe yesterday i was afraid of loosing that.i know i believe when u say u are moving on.u dont want to work things out with him.i believe it.but saying this, im not into u cause the lack of love or attention else where.u bring what u can bring to me.the rest that i lack from family i will always lack.if im with u, n we have the chance to grow, i have to think deep n hard.i cant quit half way.or when were almost there.we must be given the chance to go all the way.yes there will be decisions to make, but i want to be sure that i am allowed to make that decision if the time comes.as the thing for "wanna help u to get over it"..i dont think i have the capability or ever said i could do that.it might feel that way.but i cant.if u cant do it ur self.i cant do it my self.one thing i have learnt is, u can never help someone get over someone.u can help by listening.thats all i have offered.thats all i will be able to offer.and there is also the issue of my health.im not well.if we stick together, there might come a time when i might not be well.this is something u have to ponder.last few days.i dont feel so well.i am going to my cousins ranbir's dad's place for a injection tonight.usually i go to his dads hospital or my uncles hospital in sunway for my jab if i think im not getting well.today i cant seem to wait.my vision is blurry.my head is spinning.i think im not well.i want to say so much.i want to say it straight.but as u can read this email.my thoughts n words are very messed up.i am not insecure about ur feelings towards him or me.i know ur moving on.i know ur trying to give me a shot.i have so much fun talking to u in bulldog n so much fun looking at ya yesterday in planters.so much joy.i saw so much of hope to in ur eyes.u say take it easy on u.i can.i know ur worth it.but am i worth it?

public display of affection?

I came from a background of a very moderate blissful family… my parents are the best example of how parents should be… I have been brought up in a very nice temperament… they may not showered me with luxurious stuff but I had tons of love and care that anyone would die for… since young, they thought me to be on my own two feet's… to work for things that I had an eye for… never to trouble or to rely on others to get what I wanted… but being a kid… I was mischievous all the way… I did break their hearts… I did loads of thing that they tolerated enough… but again….
That's family… I think every family does the same…

Other then family… Steven's was the next important chapter of my life…. He was such a special person to me… and not in a million years anyone ever can change that….

I was once very naïve and innocent…
I never knew till what extent men would do just to get into a gal's pants.. I never realized friends do take advantage on you no matter how nice you treated them…
All I could see in everyone I met was just their beautiful side and never does it click my mind people actually are a pretender… surrounded by dishonest people... dirty and a liars… I don't know people out there love to play games and I was so clueless that I was too… part of their games….

And he was there all along the way… he loves me thru everything… he loves me when I was happy, when the world brings me down… when I'm broke, when I'm hideous, when I had no place to stay, when I made wrong choice in my life… he protected me from loads of thing….and for the few years he was with me, his world just revolved around me… he put me first… I was his priority…

I am the person I am now because of him… my path is a correct path all because of him… no shame in admitting that…. U must be wondering why these two people who would loves each other to death can't be together?

I was afraid… I was really afraid to open up… I was afraid to trust him with all my heart… I was afraid to let him lead my life… I was afraid to give up everything I have just to be with him…. I was afraid that he would failed me… and I know if that ever happen I would never wake up…. That is the truth…. That is why I couldn't be with him… why I should never waste more of his time and effort on me ever… I was benefiting hell of things from him…. But I did nothing in return…. And I really hate myself for that….

The reason why am I telling u all these so u would understand how my family and Steven mean the world to me…. I want to move on…i really want to..but it will take some time… not comparing, but after 3 years of relationship I wasn't ready still to leave everything just to be with the man I think I'm in love with….u cant be expecting much from me either…. Holding hands or walking in a crowd together doesn't prove anything… someone can be kissing u in public places and can say a million times they love you but that doesnt mean that what we had is less special than theirs.. u know it very well. two different races. the last thing to do is to be disrespectful to people around us.
Yes.. u do need acknowledgment.. I can truly understand that… but u didn't get to touch me in there yet… in the deepest part of the heart yet… it take years to know someone… after all these years, u might be able to move on and open up to new love… but I cant do that… I wish I could… for me to really love someone is very hard…

this few days I was thinking that maybe u could show it to me that to love again wasnt all that bad… but u came and appear to me as someone who s trying to take away myself from my own self… maybe u don't mean that way but that is what u did… from the first day we've met u taking things very fast on me… u tried to fit in my life there and then with the ticket of 'I wanna help you to get over it' …

Let me tell you one story… I was sleeping next to him for months before he can actually stop calling her ex lover's name in sleep…he was still having her in his dream even after 2 goddam years of breakup… I never once asked him to forget her or to stop talking bout her though it was getting me on my nerve with him comparing and stuff but I've learnt that if he could love that women that much… he could love me like that too… and I slowly learnt to touch him in his heart… and I did win him…. I made him realized that I am lovable enough for him to move on… and he did thank me for that…

I like you the way you are… even with a bit here and there things I don't really fancy… I can spend time with you doing practically nothing and I think it is a good start… I can't be offering you more than that…. I guess by now u already realized that… I want to be with you… taking for example… I spare u a drawer… I can't be giving you my whole wardrobe now….and if u didn't mean a thing for me why the hell there's a drawer for you at the first place?

Take it easy on me please..

U know I'm worth it…

busy day

Hi dear,
How u doing.Just felt like writing..so here i am writing to u...
you know how u complain sometimes.that life is dull..the same routine all the time.
I know i complain bout that too.all the time.
It seems the world around us goes by.but nothing much changes in our lives.
nothing much happens...nothing exciting.
then i decided to sit n really think bout it.
is life really like that? is it supposed to be like that?what or how exciting can it be?
i sit.i sit.n think bout it.many a thoughts come to mind
some funny.some good.
here are some that strike out the most.
i remember first time meeting u.in coffee bean..u eating ur salad.
feeling really uncomfy.
i remember most of our conversation from that day.
i remember shaking ur hand good bye.
kissing ur cheeks.
i remember meeting u in zouk for mooky's birthday..
u drove there.i met u at the parking lot.
u asked me which blouse i liked best.
thats the time we took our first pic.
i remember talking to u in the mamak.
then we had to leave hurriedly.due to ur many reasons.
i remember first time i went over.
didnt know how to start to make love.
instead we spoke n spoke n spoke.
i remember.u were fucked up so many times.
trying to juggle ur drug habit.
mostly trying to juggle ur broken heart.
i remember first time u met my coleagues.
u looked like hell.u looked a mess.
i remember walking u from the car to m bar.
i put my hand on ur shoulder.patted ur hair.
trying to say in my own way.take it easy.
u shrugged my hand off..u left hurriedly again.
i remember the first timeu hugged me, without me initiating it.
It was in t club.with the koreans.
u were wearing ur flowery dress.
ur fren was having an argument with that dude.
u grabbed me n hugged me to apologise.
i remember kissing u then in the car.
like u said.like high school kids.
wanted to go back with ya that day.but u came up with many a reasons.
that i become to understand now.
i remember our first kiss.u came to bulldog.met my colleagues again.
i remember i couldnt take my eyes off u.
i was so proud to have u around.
as if i was yours.
u left.u came back.
u hit ur head just before we kissed.
right in front of ya fren.
before that u fed me some kinda cookies.
funny.at that time i found u more welcoming,more loving.
but i guess u were just compensating.
no complaints though.
i sit n wonder what else life has thrown.
to prove the notion that life is dull.wrong.
i remember fighting with ya on my birthday eve.
cause of the lovehappens n friendster thing.
i remember u coming on my birthday when my colleagues were there.
u sat.then we sat at the bar.
talked.mostly i did the talking.
u looked bored nor un interested.
then u went toilet.came back.
changed ur skirt the other way around.
cause u had stained it.
i remember that birthday week.on friday.so bored in checkers.
not expecting u to come.
then saw ur face.wearing ur skarf.
n holding a cake.
i think that was the most exciting moment that i have felt with u.
i was so overjoyed.i was so happy.
i was so happy.we ate.we drank.
i know at times i was distracted.
i remember u talking to my sis.wanting to walk her to the car.
i remember the time we spend eating.drinking.just talking but what so eva things.
i remember each n everytime i was with u.
i always felt like the luckiest guy alive.
i really did.i really do.
so i sit n ponder here.
how can life be dull.how can life be boring.
trying to find reasons to say my life is interesting.
so i sit n ponder here.
and i look around me.i wonder what others do in their life.
is there anything exciting that happens to them?
i come to only one conclusion.
i compare my life with the rest.
mine is diff.
mine is a little special.
my life stands out.
my life has u.
i look around me.i wonder what others do in their life.is there anything exciting that happens to them?i come to only one conclusion.i compare my life with the rest.mine is diff.mine is a little special.my stands out.my life has u